I know it's not easy for you to walk it's a big decision, family and etc.
If you are afraid consider this. I have been here for a few years and I can count on one hand from posters who made the statement, I can't take it anymore, I'm going back.
What is it that members here have given up their family and friends to be free. Is it so we can have sinful fun, we are our own person and no one will tell us what to do?
Why have ones here turn their back on a religion they were born in, walk and is not thinking about returning. Is Satan that powerful that he makes you think, Jehovah organization is a Big lie. It makes you sick inside just the thought of returning, what the hell is it.
It would have been a easy transition for me if places like this was around when I left.